Today has been a day of very mixed emotions for me. I love the Christmas season (except for the music). I absolutely love giving gifts and experiencing the joy on people's faces. But oddly enough, it hasn't been enough for me this year.
I've spent the past two days at my parent's house, where I do enjoy myself. While I do love my apartment, sometimes, it's just a good feeling to be at home. But I can't shake this feeling of emptiness that has been occurring over the past couple of weeks. I hate the fact that my sister/bro-in-law/nephew aren't here to spend Christmas with me and my parents, but I know that eventually, they will stay in GA once. It's sounds so dumb, but I love thinking back to when my sister and I were kids and would fight to open presents first.
I guess I've learned over this past year whom is really special to me and who isn't. I have a huge tendency to care too much and to do too much for people. A friend of mine keeps telling me, "Christine, you're a great girl. You really are. You're miserable because you care too much and you let yourself get walked all over." How true, even though I really hate to hear that statement. (Thanks D.)
I don't believe in making New Year's Resolutions, but I am striving for complete happiness in 2011. It's time for me to care more about me and less about the people who, ultimately, never have cared about me. I am blessed to have the close friends and family that have struck by me over the past couple of months. I know they were difficult. I can't thank you enough. I'm attempting to do so here.
Mom: You've always been there for me, no matter what. Even if it wasn't feasible, you were always there to take me to lunch, talk to me at midnight, or wake me up at 8am asking me about one of my tweet's. Never can I replicate the love you have given me.
R: We've been best friends for five years now and I can honestly say that you've never supported yourself to me more than this year. You've held me up in my toughest times and made me feel like I could make it through anything. I can't ever repay that.
M: Even from 1000 miles away, you're always there with "I'm hopping on a plane just for a Christine hug" or "Damn girl, when do I get to see your face?". After 17 years, we're still going strong.
D: While only being friends for a short time, you've helped me realize my true worth. True friends understand and aren't afraid to say the truth, even though it hurts.
I have many people to thank, but these four have helped me through some of the toughest times this year. Going through my final year of college, dealing with a rough breakup, going back to serving after not knowing what to do post-graduation, and everything else, they've been there. I can't wait to see what 2011 has to hold for me, because I know I have these people there to support me through anything.
I can't wait to experience all of the new in 2011. I have an optimistic feeling about the future. :-)
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Saturday, December 18, 2010
SHOES!
Everybody knows my love for shoes. These two are my new loves.
I'm pretty sure I need shoe therapy.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Oops
I hardly ever get on my computer anymore, so I hardly ever update this blog anymore. In the new year, I plan to change that. I've realized that I rely on my iPhone way too much. (Doesn't everyone?)
I promise, I'll get back on here and update everyone on my life. Soon.... :-)
I promise, I'll get back on here and update everyone on my life. Soon.... :-)
Thursday, October 21, 2010
I'm back.
I know, I know. It's been a crazy long hiatus from blogging. For one, I almost never get on my lap top anymore unless I have a specific reason to (yes, yes, I know blogging is a specific reason). My big sister from KD Jenny wrote on my Facebook that I haven't been online very much lately, so due to popular demand, I'm back.
Whew. The past few months have been crazy. I've been working a ton, serving at Peachtree Diner. I know I said that I never wanted to go back to serving (still don't), I have actually enjoyed working here. The atmosphere is completely different than Taco Mac. No more high school drama (well, barely any). I've made two very strong friendships with people that I feel blessed to know. All in all, working here has been a blessing in disguise.
Now, eventually I'm going to have to find a real job. Yes, I know serving is a real job, but I'm not going to be $22,000 in debt to the government for a college degree that I'm not going to use. It's a matter of figuring out what I want to do. This is why I'm serving right now. I don't want to to take a job that I am settling for. While the economy is bad, I want to be happy when I go to work every day.
I've been an emotional basketcase for the past couple of weeks, mainly due to not having either of my professional life OR love life straight. I've been very blessed to have had some special friends to help me get through this rough (annoying) time in my life. Patience is not my strong point, but I'm trying to get better at not rushing things and letting things happen the way AND time that they are supposed to happen.
Oh...in case anyone remembers from my last blog post...I did buy the shoes. AND I LOVE THEM!
Whew. The past few months have been crazy. I've been working a ton, serving at Peachtree Diner. I know I said that I never wanted to go back to serving (still don't), I have actually enjoyed working here. The atmosphere is completely different than Taco Mac. No more high school drama (well, barely any). I've made two very strong friendships with people that I feel blessed to know. All in all, working here has been a blessing in disguise.
Now, eventually I'm going to have to find a real job. Yes, I know serving is a real job, but I'm not going to be $22,000 in debt to the government for a college degree that I'm not going to use. It's a matter of figuring out what I want to do. This is why I'm serving right now. I don't want to to take a job that I am settling for. While the economy is bad, I want to be happy when I go to work every day.
I've been an emotional basketcase for the past couple of weeks, mainly due to not having either of my professional life OR love life straight. I've been very blessed to have had some special friends to help me get through this rough (annoying) time in my life. Patience is not my strong point, but I'm trying to get better at not rushing things and letting things happen the way AND time that they are supposed to happen.
Oh...in case anyone remembers from my last blog post...I did buy the shoes. AND I LOVE THEM!
Monday, July 5, 2010
Shoes...uh oh...
I went and visited my best friend Rebecca last Wednesday (my first off day in 11 days) at her new job at a boutique called Fab'rik. Well, after she dressed me for two hours and my purchase of two tops and a belt, I am still swooning over the shoes her boss was wearing. So, I need someone out there to give me a damn good reason why I shouldn't buy these shoes.
Michael Antonio Gatsby
$59.99
Piper Lime
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Blog Spotlight!
Well, well. I'm alive. I've been working NON-STOP, along with trying to figure out when to do my French class and my last SPCM class (sad). Also, been looking for stuff to decorate, although I'm saving every penny I have for when I move in since I believe there are things I MUST HAVE before moving in (new bedroom curtains, side table, lamp, etc). So...in order to keep whoever reads this blog excited, I give to you a new feature: Blog Spotlight!
My first one goes to my amazing friend Jenny. I met Jenny my freshman year of college at UK, the night before Bid Day. She was in our hallway, hanging things up (which she always tried to recruit people into helping, which no one wanted to do), when I stuck my head out and she introduced herself to me as my new R.A. Little did I know that 6 weeks later, she would also become my big sister in KD (small world, I know). Well, four years later, she's a nurse at Vanderbilt Children's Hospital and married to Justin, whom I also met right around this time. Enjoy her blog!
My first one goes to my amazing friend Jenny. I met Jenny my freshman year of college at UK, the night before Bid Day. She was in our hallway, hanging things up (which she always tried to recruit people into helping, which no one wanted to do), when I stuck my head out and she introduced herself to me as my new R.A. Little did I know that 6 weeks later, she would also become my big sister in KD (small world, I know). Well, four years later, she's a nurse at Vanderbilt Children's Hospital and married to Justin, whom I also met right around this time. Enjoy her blog!
Friday, June 18, 2010
Still searching...
In my last post, I wrote about how I was figuring out how I wanted to redecorate my apartment. In my current place, I painted every room but one, because frankly, I hate white (or eggshell, ivory, or whatever) walls. They just make me feel depressed and sad. So, after living there for six months, I painted everything (living room is blue, kitchen is gray/purple, bedroom and bathroom are taupe). Now that I'm moving into a new place, I don't want to paint everything, but I decided to just paint an accent wall in the living room where my fireplace (!) is.
Now, you might be thinking, "Gee, Christine, you just said you hate plain walls". You are right. I do. So....voila!
I will be putting these lovely decals in my vanity area of my bathroom. I found these on Cupcakes and Cashmere, just like I do everything else. I bought them in brown.You can get them at www.whatisblik.com.
On another note, my big KD sister was interested in the vase that I posted also in my last post. Well, here is another AMAZING find that I just scooped up in plum. They are only left in indigo, but they are still for an absolute steal of $15!
Now, you might be thinking, "Gee, Christine, you just said you hate plain walls". You are right. I do. So....voila!
I will be putting these lovely decals in my vanity area of my bathroom. I found these on Cupcakes and Cashmere, just like I do everything else. I bought them in brown.You can get them at www.whatisblik.com.
On another note, my big KD sister was interested in the vase that I posted also in my last post. Well, here is another AMAZING find that I just scooped up in plum. They are only left in indigo, but they are still for an absolute steal of $15!
Finally, one more thing that I am swooning over is the comforter that Ali had in this week's episode of The Bachelorette. I am 99% that it is also from Anthropologie, but in all honesty, I have way too many comforters, blankets, duvets, and sheets as it is. Sad.
Happy Decorating!
Monday, June 7, 2010
It's time to redecorate....
Well, I've been so busy that I have had absolutely NO time to sit and write an entry, so I decided that while I'm watching The Bachelorette, I would come and fill everyone in on my life lately.
I've been going through vigorous job training for two weeks, but am stuck in a bad place with this job. I did not pass my state exam on the first try, which really threw me for a loop. Now, I can't decide whether or not I want to do this. I'm stuck and literally don't know what I should do. I am getting a serving job to help bring some money in while I figure out what to do.
I guess what I'm struggling with is what I really want to do with my life. And that, I truly have NO answer for.
In other news, I found a new apartment! I really did not want to rent a storage unit for all of my stuff that is coming from Athens. And as much as I love my parents (and I truly do), I feel that I am an adult and that it's time to grow up and move on. I'm only 5 mns away, so I can always head back over there. And I know my mom will be around just as much :-) Now for the fun part....DECORATING!!!!!!
I bought myself a little housewarming gift for myself. As an avid reader of Cupcakes and Cashmere, I love looking at the stuff she finds. She's really great at finding cheap things along with the expensive things. She also recently designed a bag for Coach! Anyways, we all know I love Anthropologie (thanks Lauren), so when I found this pitcher on C&C, I had to have it. And what a steal at $28.
I've been going through vigorous job training for two weeks, but am stuck in a bad place with this job. I did not pass my state exam on the first try, which really threw me for a loop. Now, I can't decide whether or not I want to do this. I'm stuck and literally don't know what I should do. I am getting a serving job to help bring some money in while I figure out what to do.
I guess what I'm struggling with is what I really want to do with my life. And that, I truly have NO answer for.
In other news, I found a new apartment! I really did not want to rent a storage unit for all of my stuff that is coming from Athens. And as much as I love my parents (and I truly do), I feel that I am an adult and that it's time to grow up and move on. I'm only 5 mns away, so I can always head back over there. And I know my mom will be around just as much :-) Now for the fun part....DECORATING!!!!!!
I bought myself a little housewarming gift for myself. As an avid reader of Cupcakes and Cashmere, I love looking at the stuff she finds. She's really great at finding cheap things along with the expensive things. She also recently designed a bag for Coach! Anyways, we all know I love Anthropologie (thanks Lauren), so when I found this pitcher on C&C, I had to have it. And what a steal at $28.
Atlantian Pitcher ($28)
Monday, May 24, 2010
And off we go...
Well, the graduation party that my family threw for me has come and gone. It was a GREAT time. Good times, great food/drinks, and fabulous friends. Unfortunately, not everyone could make it, but I still had a great time. Now, onwards to job training and finishing up my two online classes.
Before the party, my mom and I headed up to Perimeter Mall to find a tank top that I had seen at Ann Taylor Loft and wanted to get to wear to my party. Well, needless to say, we ended up getting more. I got my first three pieces of clothing from Anthropologie and I am MORE than excited to wear them out. I did not get this tank, but I just might have to go back and get it.
Before the party, my mom and I headed up to Perimeter Mall to find a tank top that I had seen at Ann Taylor Loft and wanted to get to wear to my party. Well, needless to say, we ended up getting more. I got my first three pieces of clothing from Anthropologie and I am MORE than excited to wear them out. I did not get this tank, but I just might have to go back and get it.
SL MIX RUFFLE SC ($58)
Monday, May 17, 2010
Need luggage?
After my escapade to California last summer (which I'm sure many of you have heard about), I am so thankful for the luggage that I brought with me. See, as I am a female, I like to overpack. I like to bring EVERYTHING possible. I like variety and I like options. I used this Vera Bradley large duffel to use as I made my way through five flights, many states, 5 different airports, and many arguments with the boyfriend. It probably saved my sanity through this trip.
I've always loved Vera Bradley. Since high school, I've had my fair share of purses, wallets, etc. I still use my large makeup bag in the Cafe Latte pattern, along with a mini makeup bag in Bali blue for my jewelry. I have the large duffel in Bali Gold and Peacock (I don't believe in having the same pattern twice). My love for Vera was confirmed when I rushed a sorority in college. I am a Kappa Delta, and one of the founders of Vera Bradley was a KD! So, as you can guess, we had Vera stuff all over our house.
My brother-in-law hates Vera, but that didn't stop me from getting my sister a large duffel in Mesa Red. My friend Ashley loved my Bali Gold duffel so much, she convinced her boyfriend to get it for her for Christmas (complete with monogram). My mom has one also.
While I don't use my purses or wallets anymore from Vera, I can't help but be obsessed with the duffels. Plus, some of their older colors are on sale!
I've always loved Vera Bradley. Since high school, I've had my fair share of purses, wallets, etc. I still use my large makeup bag in the Cafe Latte pattern, along with a mini makeup bag in Bali blue for my jewelry. I have the large duffel in Bali Gold and Peacock (I don't believe in having the same pattern twice). My love for Vera was confirmed when I rushed a sorority in college. I am a Kappa Delta, and one of the founders of Vera Bradley was a KD! So, as you can guess, we had Vera stuff all over our house.
My brother-in-law hates Vera, but that didn't stop me from getting my sister a large duffel in Mesa Red. My friend Ashley loved my Bali Gold duffel so much, she convinced her boyfriend to get it for her for Christmas (complete with monogram). My mom has one also.
While I don't use my purses or wallets anymore from Vera, I can't help but be obsessed with the duffels. Plus, some of their older colors are on sale!
Vera Bradley Large Duffel Bag (in Java Blue)
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Life as a college graduate begins...
On my first official day as a college graduate (sort of; I'm not counting my online class), I spent it having jury duty! Rah. Luckily, I was finished by noon. I then received word that my nephew was sick, so I volunteered to watch him on Tuesday while he was sick. As much as I love my nephew, he was a handful today. He is beginning the "separation anxiety" stage, so he was not happy that I was not his mother nor his father. All ended well, and I still love my Buddha.
I want to get myself something as a celebration for me graduating college and getting a full time job. I don't know what to get though. I'm heading up to the outlets on Thursday with one of my best friends Rebecca, so maybe I will find something. If not...I'm sure I can figure something out. :-)
I want to get myself something as a celebration for me graduating college and getting a full time job. I don't know what to get though. I'm heading up to the outlets on Thursday with one of my best friends Rebecca, so maybe I will find something. If not...I'm sure I can figure something out. :-)
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Newest Obsession...
As everyone knows, my main television obsession is Dancing with the Stars. Not a day goes by that I don't wish I was a C-List celebrity so I could get a chance to dance with Louis van Amstel, Tony Dovolani, or Jonathan Roberts. Just YUM. But afterwards, there is an AWESOME show that you should check out. 10:00 EST!!!
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Top Two Tuesday!
Since I seem to get a ton of things from my friend Lauren's blog, I figured I would continue my trend.
1. Necklaces.
-I am absolutely obsessed with necklaces. I never used to be an accessory person, but I have lately gotten into them. My current favorite is a three strand turquoise stone necklace from Francesca's. I can't find a picture online of it, but it is similar to this one.
2. Sunglasses
-I have very pale blue eyes, so anytime I spend in the sun without sunglasses is painful. I can't bring myself to spend a lot of money on sunglasses, since I go through them pretty quickly. I absolutely live in the ones I found from Target two years ago and am on my third pair. I also have the most adorable sunglasses case given to me by my friend Rebecca last Christmas (similar to the one shown here).
I hope you enjoyed your Tuesday! Time to finish this paper.
1. Necklaces.
-I am absolutely obsessed with necklaces. I never used to be an accessory person, but I have lately gotten into them. My current favorite is a three strand turquoise stone necklace from Francesca's. I can't find a picture online of it, but it is similar to this one.
2. Sunglasses
-I have very pale blue eyes, so anytime I spend in the sun without sunglasses is painful. I can't bring myself to spend a lot of money on sunglasses, since I go through them pretty quickly. I absolutely live in the ones I found from Target two years ago and am on my third pair. I also have the most adorable sunglasses case given to me by my friend Rebecca last Christmas (similar to the one shown here).
I hope you enjoyed your Tuesday! Time to finish this paper.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Tulle and Flowers
After my job interview Monday night, I've basically been attempting to do a whole bunch of schoolwork to get out of the way so I can actually enjoy my weekend. I plan on helping clean off my parents' deck, dogsitting, spending time with the boyfriend, and whatever else comes up. I do plan on working on my huge Interpersonal Conflict paper, but I plan on enjoying myself as well.
I also have a new job interview on Monday! I'm very excited, because I like the look of the company. Hopefully, all goes well. :-)
Otherwise, I'm writing my huge paper, studying for my two exams, and wasting time looking at clothes and shoes online. Here's what I am currently drooling over.
I absolutely love love LOVE Ann Taylor.
I also have a new job interview on Monday! I'm very excited, because I like the look of the company. Hopefully, all goes well. :-)
Otherwise, I'm writing my huge paper, studying for my two exams, and wasting time looking at clothes and shoes online. Here's what I am currently drooling over.
I absolutely love love LOVE Ann Taylor.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Onwards...
Well, after a very stressful job interview yesterday, I decided not to post the details on my blog. Other than it is totally not what I had originally interviewed for nor what I want to do with my life. It was great to experience that (probably would have been better if I had not been wearing 4 inch heels, for 7.5 hours, walking up hills and driveways) I am thankful for, but I just need to find something else for me. I am thankful for the opportunity.
So, the job search continues. Onwards.
Anywho...something that keeps me happy....this is my parent's dog. She was my first dog and I love her to pieces!
So, the job search continues. Onwards.
Anywho...something that keeps me happy....this is my parent's dog. She was my first dog and I love her to pieces!
Friday, April 23, 2010
Hah...Thanks Lauren
Since it's Friday, and I'm bored, I decided to "steal" an award off of my friend Lauren's blog. So..here we go!
The rules............
Accept and thank the person who gave it to you
List 10 things about yourself
List 5 additional things you DON'T like
Then pick ten people to give this lovely award to
Accept and thank the person who gave it to you
List 10 things about yourself
List 5 additional things you DON'T like
Then pick ten people to give this lovely award to
Ten Things about Me.
1. I have two plastic bins full of shoes and also two "shoe-under" things full of shoes. Oops.
2. I never, almost never, wear black if I can help it.
3. No meal is complete without cheese.
4. I do have a favorite dog...and no, I'm not telling who it is.
5. I want to ride an elephant before I die.
6. I never go out without makeup if I can help it.
7. I don't really like sweatpants.
8. I'm a nerd and love to read.
9. I have recently gotten into crossword puzzles.
10. I really love a good mojito.
Five Things I Don't Like
1. I am way oversensitive.
2. I'm not too found of the two love handles that have deposited themselves on my hips.
3. I wish I knew what I wanted to do with my life.
4. I am way too dependent on certain people.
5. I wish I enjoyed movies more.
Passing it on too......WHOMEVER!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Dress to Impress
I realized that my blog is set up to go to a Gmail account that I never knew I had. I noticed I had some lovely comments left on some old posts that I never got to read. Oops. Anywho...thanks Lauren and Jenny! Click on their names to direct to their blogs.
I love shopping. Love. Everyday, I get online, check my email for any happy coupons that I may have received, then read my favorite fashion blogs. The first one is Possessionista. She finds the clothes that appear on our favorite celebrities or television shows and brings them to the limelight for us. If she can't find a real one, she definitely finds something close enough. The second one I love is Cupcakes and Cashmere. Not only does she provide amazing clothing styles, but also includes amazing recipes and home stuff.
I am loving almost everything that Francesca's has in its store. Things are well priced and just too damn cute not to pass out. They have cute little trinkets and home stuff, but they concentrate on clothes, bags, and jewelry. I have some amazing jewelry pieces from there, but here are some of my favorites (links, since I still can't get any pictures to post on my blog).
Tea Rose Skirt
Pollock Racerback Tank
Now & Later Dress
Square Biz Dress
Stonehedge Necklace
Sedona Dangles
Their website doesn't even begin to touch on the amount of stuff they have, so visit their website to find the store nearest you!
I love shopping. Love. Everyday, I get online, check my email for any happy coupons that I may have received, then read my favorite fashion blogs. The first one is Possessionista. She finds the clothes that appear on our favorite celebrities or television shows and brings them to the limelight for us. If she can't find a real one, she definitely finds something close enough. The second one I love is Cupcakes and Cashmere. Not only does she provide amazing clothing styles, but also includes amazing recipes and home stuff.
I am loving almost everything that Francesca's has in its store. Things are well priced and just too damn cute not to pass out. They have cute little trinkets and home stuff, but they concentrate on clothes, bags, and jewelry. I have some amazing jewelry pieces from there, but here are some of my favorites (links, since I still can't get any pictures to post on my blog).
Tea Rose Skirt
Pollock Racerback Tank
Now & Later Dress
Square Biz Dress
Stonehedge Necklace
Sedona Dangles
Their website doesn't even begin to touch on the amount of stuff they have, so visit their website to find the store nearest you!
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Help?
For some reason, Blogspot won't let me post pictures on my blog. I don't know if it's my computer, but I can't post any pictures. I've gone over the help portion of the blog but it still won't work. Any suggestions?
Monday, April 12, 2010
Skinny Skinny
I'm totally freaking out about getting older. I'm terrified of getting fat. I have a significant love for cheese, bread, Mexican food, Italian food, and tons of other not so good stuff for you. However, I have found new stuff that is totally yummy and healthy.
Kashi: I'm not a big fan of their granola bars, but I love their cereal. I just bought the Strawberry Fields cereal and it's to DIE for. I also love their Cinnamon Harvest Mini Wheats.
Whole Wheat Pasta: I love pasta and definitely do not consider it a side dish (I read somewhere that it is supposed to be a side dish and never exceed half a cup. Yeah, right). Using whole wheat pasta can significantly lower the calories in pasta. I've also been adding broccoli and asparagus to make it healthier also. Also, I use olive oil (a little) instead of red sauce to cut some calories out.
Fruit: Canned fruit and dried fruit are full of sugar and other things that shouldn't be in fruit. Honestly, the best way to get your fruit servings is just to eat fruit. I buy pre-cut fruit from Kroger and Publix. Easiest way to get the nutrients. And don't add Splenda on it.
V8: I hate tomato juice, but they make cans of juice/veggies that give you one daily serving. I like the blueberry pomegranate mix, but like I said about the sugar issue, drink tons of water also.
Caffeine: Oh....my weakness. I have one soda a day (don't care; not giving it up....ever). I used to never drink water, but I've changed that and drink a ton now. Caffeine won't kill or harm you. Just drink it in moderation.
These are just a few of my favorites. They are tons of other healthy stuff out there, but these are my favorites. If I keep it up, maybe I can look like one of my favorite pros on DWTS. Hah.... :-)
Kashi: I'm not a big fan of their granola bars, but I love their cereal. I just bought the Strawberry Fields cereal and it's to DIE for. I also love their Cinnamon Harvest Mini Wheats.
Whole Wheat Pasta: I love pasta and definitely do not consider it a side dish (I read somewhere that it is supposed to be a side dish and never exceed half a cup. Yeah, right). Using whole wheat pasta can significantly lower the calories in pasta. I've also been adding broccoli and asparagus to make it healthier also. Also, I use olive oil (a little) instead of red sauce to cut some calories out.
Fruit: Canned fruit and dried fruit are full of sugar and other things that shouldn't be in fruit. Honestly, the best way to get your fruit servings is just to eat fruit. I buy pre-cut fruit from Kroger and Publix. Easiest way to get the nutrients. And don't add Splenda on it.
V8: I hate tomato juice, but they make cans of juice/veggies that give you one daily serving. I like the blueberry pomegranate mix, but like I said about the sugar issue, drink tons of water also.
Caffeine: Oh....my weakness. I have one soda a day (don't care; not giving it up....ever). I used to never drink water, but I've changed that and drink a ton now. Caffeine won't kill or harm you. Just drink it in moderation.
These are just a few of my favorites. They are tons of other healthy stuff out there, but these are my favorites. If I keep it up, maybe I can look like one of my favorite pros on DWTS. Hah.... :-)
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
How young
I haven't written in a while. I guess I haven't felt like there has been a ton to write about. I've been trying to get through my classes and now, more than ever, stuff is building up. Two major projects, a huge paper, regular finals, and just normal schoolwork. On top of job hunting and interviewing, I'm bushed.
I've been going home a lot to spend time with my nephew. Every time I go there, I see the utter joy he has to be alive. I was able to spend an entire day with him over my spring break and it was one of the most fun days of my life. He's a little over 6 months old and is just figuring out how to sit up without toppling over (almost). Ever since he got his tubes in his ears, he has been the happiest little boy. He smiles so big and is so interested in his surroundings. He's learning how to eat fruit and vegetables and absolutely loves all of it.
How is it possible that an almost 22 year old can learn from a 6 month old? I look at him and wish I could have that kind of optimism that he has for life. He is afraid of nothing and has the best attitude about everything. Plus, he's got awesome style (courtesy of me...who else?). It's amazing how much I look up to a 6 month old. I can't wait till he can look up to me.
I've been going home a lot to spend time with my nephew. Every time I go there, I see the utter joy he has to be alive. I was able to spend an entire day with him over my spring break and it was one of the most fun days of my life. He's a little over 6 months old and is just figuring out how to sit up without toppling over (almost). Ever since he got his tubes in his ears, he has been the happiest little boy. He smiles so big and is so interested in his surroundings. He's learning how to eat fruit and vegetables and absolutely loves all of it.
How is it possible that an almost 22 year old can learn from a 6 month old? I look at him and wish I could have that kind of optimism that he has for life. He is afraid of nothing and has the best attitude about everything. Plus, he's got awesome style (courtesy of me...who else?). It's amazing how much I look up to a 6 month old. I can't wait till he can look up to me.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Life is unknown for the future...
As graduation is rapidly approaching, I feel as though my brain is all over the place. I've officially applied for some jobs and I'm very excited to hear back from them (and hopefully receive an interview). Some of the companies are very interesting, so I look forward to the newest chapter in my life. But with a new chapter comes reservations about leaving the old one.
I've lived in Georgia my entire life, minus the year I spent in Kentucky. I am so grateful that I spent that year there. I wasn't happy I transferred, and even to this day, I wonder how different my life would have been if I would have stayed there longer. I know I wouldn't have my amazing dogs, so the trade-off is worth it, but what direction would my life have gone? Being alone in Kentucky, 6 hours away from everything I was used to, definitely made me into a more mature and independent person. Rather, it didn't make me; it forced me.
Once I moved home and continued school here, I began feeling as though I was stuck in a rut. I was in a "relationship" (to put it lightly) that had no true beginning or end in sight. I was stuck at a job where although I was making good money, I felt that I wasn't truly respected for my work. I never felt comfortable at UGA, didn't know what I wanted to major in, what I wanted to do in my life. I chose my major because, at the time, it was where my credits went towards. As I got into my major, I became more interested in communication and liked where I was going.
Now that I am graduating college and not attending graduate school (for now), I'm very impatient to find out what will happen in the coming months. What job will I end up having? Where will I live?
I may not know the answers to the questions yet, but I know they will come. The one person who has truly kept me going has been my mom. Through all my stresses and worries, she's been the complete rock (boulder really) who has kept me holding on and striving forward to be a college graduate. She never graduated college, so I can see how happy it makes her that my sister and I have worked hard. I have a lot of freak out moments and she's always been the one to keep me going and never let me doubt myself. I don't know what I would do without her.
I've lived in Georgia my entire life, minus the year I spent in Kentucky. I am so grateful that I spent that year there. I wasn't happy I transferred, and even to this day, I wonder how different my life would have been if I would have stayed there longer. I know I wouldn't have my amazing dogs, so the trade-off is worth it, but what direction would my life have gone? Being alone in Kentucky, 6 hours away from everything I was used to, definitely made me into a more mature and independent person. Rather, it didn't make me; it forced me.
Once I moved home and continued school here, I began feeling as though I was stuck in a rut. I was in a "relationship" (to put it lightly) that had no true beginning or end in sight. I was stuck at a job where although I was making good money, I felt that I wasn't truly respected for my work. I never felt comfortable at UGA, didn't know what I wanted to major in, what I wanted to do in my life. I chose my major because, at the time, it was where my credits went towards. As I got into my major, I became more interested in communication and liked where I was going.
Now that I am graduating college and not attending graduate school (for now), I'm very impatient to find out what will happen in the coming months. What job will I end up having? Where will I live?
I may not know the answers to the questions yet, but I know they will come. The one person who has truly kept me going has been my mom. Through all my stresses and worries, she's been the complete rock (boulder really) who has kept me holding on and striving forward to be a college graduate. She never graduated college, so I can see how happy it makes her that my sister and I have worked hard. I have a lot of freak out moments and she's always been the one to keep me going and never let me doubt myself. I don't know what I would do without her.
Monday, January 11, 2010
My friend Lauren has her own blog (here) and I took this from her's. I was surprised by some one my answers.
1. I’ve come to realize that my body... has begun to change as I've gotten older. I've never had a problem with what I eat, but all of a sudden, I'm more paranoid about it because I'm terrified of becoming overweight.
2. I’ve come to realize that my job... is currently nonexistent, but is coming in the next months. I am determined to find a full-time job when I graduate. I really don't want to go back to serving.
3. I’ve come to realize that when I’m driving... I believe I'm invincible. I think this is due to the fact that I now drive a pretty big SUV. I need to slow down and realize that I can get hurt just like anyone else.
4. I’ve come to realize that I need...to let what happens, happen. I hate waiting and I hate not having control over things. I need to learn that I can't control everything.
5. I’ve come to realize that I have lost...some really important friends. I had a friend that I had had since middle school, and she decided to drop me when her boyfriend became more important. I'm thankful that I've learned her true side, but it still hurts when we had been through so much together. She was literally my rock throughout high school.
6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when...I psyche myself out. I tend to make situations worse because I literally can not unhook my brain from a topic.
7. I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk...then it's really an odd night. I don't drink very much, but when I do, I make sure not to overdue it. I am a horrible drunk, becoming mean and upset, so it's better for all parties involved if I only have a drink or two (plus the whole control issue I have).
8. I’ve come to realize that money...drives me insane. Since I've stopped working for my last year of school, I hate spending any money because I worry about EVERY penny I spend. Ugh. I like shopping too much, so I'm learning to curb my wants.
9. I’ve come to realize that certain people...are totally worth it. I waited a long time to date a certain someone; time is well worth it.
10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll always...want everything. I want the best, but I'm willing to work for it. I've worked since I was 14, so that idea is nothing new to me.
11. I’ve come to realize that my sibling(s)...is more like me than I ever thought. We've never gotten along great, but over the last year, we've blossomed in our relationship and get along MUCH better.
12. I’ve come to realize that my mom...is my rock and savior. She is probably the most important person to me.
13. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone...never leaves my sight. Yes, I bring it into the bathroom with me and sleep with it. Something else I need to work on.
14. I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning...that I really did not want to walk the dogs.
15. I’ve come to realize that last night before I went to sleep...that I hate sleeping alone. The dogs were cuddling with each other at the end of the bed, and it was sad to say that I was jealous that neither was cuddling with me.
16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking...about my future, nonstop.
17. I’ve come to realize that my dad...is strange, but amazing. I've learned to love his quirks.
18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook...it doesn't change as much as I would like it to. I use it to delay doing schoolwork, so it needs to accommodate my needs.
19. I’ve come to realize that today...was yet another day of classes and another day closer to the real world.
20. I’ve come to realize that tonight...needs to begin; need to start doing schoolwork.
21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow...will be a long day, but will end up being wonderful (I'm determined to NOT have bad days).
22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to...decorate a new apartment. I love the way my apartment is, but I love decorating.
23. I’ve come to realize that the person mostly likely to re-post this is...probably no one.
24. I’ve come to realize that life... changes everyday and it is impossible to know what will happen. Live and let go.
25. I’ve come to realize that this weekend..will be interesting. My good friend is doing Miss UGA and I've never been to a pageant before, so I'm interested in this new experience.
26. I’ve come to realize the best music to listen to when I am upset...is usually the Rat Pack.
27. I’ve come to realize that my friends...are truly the ones who stick by your side through anything.
28. I’ve come to realize that this year...was a rough one, but I'm already moving on the new one.
29. I’ve come to realize that my husband...has a lot to put up with. I'm not usually the easiest person to tolerate, since I'm so severe and opinionated.
30. I’ve come to realize that maybe I should...curb my opinions.
31. I’ve come to realize that I love...what might come out of this year.
32. I’ve come to realize that I don’t understand...why I am the way I am, but I'm very proud of me.
33. I’ve come to realize my past...was rough, but it's the PAST. Not my future. Move on.
34. I’ve come to realize that parties...are blah. I'm not really a party person.
35. I’ve come to realize that I’m totally terrified...of failure.
36. I’ve come to realize that my life...hasn't even started yet.
1. I’ve come to realize that my body... has begun to change as I've gotten older. I've never had a problem with what I eat, but all of a sudden, I'm more paranoid about it because I'm terrified of becoming overweight.
2. I’ve come to realize that my job... is currently nonexistent, but is coming in the next months. I am determined to find a full-time job when I graduate. I really don't want to go back to serving.
3. I’ve come to realize that when I’m driving... I believe I'm invincible. I think this is due to the fact that I now drive a pretty big SUV. I need to slow down and realize that I can get hurt just like anyone else.
4. I’ve come to realize that I need...to let what happens, happen. I hate waiting and I hate not having control over things. I need to learn that I can't control everything.
5. I’ve come to realize that I have lost...some really important friends. I had a friend that I had had since middle school, and she decided to drop me when her boyfriend became more important. I'm thankful that I've learned her true side, but it still hurts when we had been through so much together. She was literally my rock throughout high school.
6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when...I psyche myself out. I tend to make situations worse because I literally can not unhook my brain from a topic.
7. I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk...then it's really an odd night. I don't drink very much, but when I do, I make sure not to overdue it. I am a horrible drunk, becoming mean and upset, so it's better for all parties involved if I only have a drink or two (plus the whole control issue I have).
8. I’ve come to realize that money...drives me insane. Since I've stopped working for my last year of school, I hate spending any money because I worry about EVERY penny I spend. Ugh. I like shopping too much, so I'm learning to curb my wants.
9. I’ve come to realize that certain people...are totally worth it. I waited a long time to date a certain someone; time is well worth it.
10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll always...want everything. I want the best, but I'm willing to work for it. I've worked since I was 14, so that idea is nothing new to me.
11. I’ve come to realize that my sibling(s)...is more like me than I ever thought. We've never gotten along great, but over the last year, we've blossomed in our relationship and get along MUCH better.
12. I’ve come to realize that my mom...is my rock and savior. She is probably the most important person to me.
13. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone...never leaves my sight. Yes, I bring it into the bathroom with me and sleep with it. Something else I need to work on.
14. I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning...that I really did not want to walk the dogs.
15. I’ve come to realize that last night before I went to sleep...that I hate sleeping alone. The dogs were cuddling with each other at the end of the bed, and it was sad to say that I was jealous that neither was cuddling with me.
16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking...about my future, nonstop.
17. I’ve come to realize that my dad...is strange, but amazing. I've learned to love his quirks.
18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook...it doesn't change as much as I would like it to. I use it to delay doing schoolwork, so it needs to accommodate my needs.
19. I’ve come to realize that today...was yet another day of classes and another day closer to the real world.
20. I’ve come to realize that tonight...needs to begin; need to start doing schoolwork.
21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow...will be a long day, but will end up being wonderful (I'm determined to NOT have bad days).
22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to...decorate a new apartment. I love the way my apartment is, but I love decorating.
23. I’ve come to realize that the person mostly likely to re-post this is...probably no one.
24. I’ve come to realize that life... changes everyday and it is impossible to know what will happen. Live and let go.
25. I’ve come to realize that this weekend..will be interesting. My good friend is doing Miss UGA and I've never been to a pageant before, so I'm interested in this new experience.
26. I’ve come to realize the best music to listen to when I am upset...is usually the Rat Pack.
27. I’ve come to realize that my friends...are truly the ones who stick by your side through anything.
28. I’ve come to realize that this year...was a rough one, but I'm already moving on the new one.
29. I’ve come to realize that my husband...has a lot to put up with. I'm not usually the easiest person to tolerate, since I'm so severe and opinionated.
30. I’ve come to realize that maybe I should...curb my opinions.
31. I’ve come to realize that I love...what might come out of this year.
32. I’ve come to realize that I don’t understand...why I am the way I am, but I'm very proud of me.
33. I’ve come to realize my past...was rough, but it's the PAST. Not my future. Move on.
34. I’ve come to realize that parties...are blah. I'm not really a party person.
35. I’ve come to realize that I’m totally terrified...of failure.
36. I’ve come to realize that my life...hasn't even started yet.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Oh the future....
I haven't posted in a while, as my mom decided to point out this week (Hi Mom!). I guess I got sidetracked during final exams and projects. Plus I really couldn't think of anything to say. Graduation is nearing and I'm completely terrified.
I've always been responsible. I've always had a job since I was 14 until July 2009 when I finally decided to leave the job I had for three years. It was time to leave, mainly due to the stress that it caused me. I loved serving tables, learning about beer, and the way the restaurant worked. What I didn't enjoy was the high school drama and idiots who were around. Plus, since I was dating a coworker (still am, just neither of us work there anymore), it was really hard to have a relationship there. I was always mad at him, since I had trouble separating work and real life.
Now that I've quit, I feel less stressed, but also less useful. My mom and I made a deal that I would not work for the fall semester, in order to get myself back together. Then, when spring semester rolled around and I decided to take 17 hours, working was once again out of the question. After May (and two May classes), I will be a graduate of UGA and then....what? I have to find a job, an apartment, take over my car payment, pay taxes, pay all the dog stuff ($50 FOR DOG FOOD?!?!?), pay all the bills, and probably tons of other stuff. I have paid many of these things before, but never at the same time. I hate using my credit card (I know, I'm weird) and.....whew. It's just hard to digest.
I know it's time to become a full fledged adult. I know that I don't HAVE to find an apartment right away and that I can move home, but I feel bad taking my two dogs home because it isn't my parents responsibility to take care of them. I know that I will let them whenever I feel like going to see Rich and whatever else.
My mom and I made a deal that she wouldn't keep mentioning how excited she was that she wasn't going to have to pay stuff come August as long as I stopped freaking out about money. I agreed to this. Crap. Now what? I'm going to keep my frustrations inside, self-combust, and cry profusely. No...I won't. I'll be responsible, deal with it like an adult, and handle things as they come.
But for now.
I'm crawling into bed, with my two dogs, down comforter, flannel sheets....because it's the only place I feel secure in right now.
I've always been responsible. I've always had a job since I was 14 until July 2009 when I finally decided to leave the job I had for three years. It was time to leave, mainly due to the stress that it caused me. I loved serving tables, learning about beer, and the way the restaurant worked. What I didn't enjoy was the high school drama and idiots who were around. Plus, since I was dating a coworker (still am, just neither of us work there anymore), it was really hard to have a relationship there. I was always mad at him, since I had trouble separating work and real life.
Now that I've quit, I feel less stressed, but also less useful. My mom and I made a deal that I would not work for the fall semester, in order to get myself back together. Then, when spring semester rolled around and I decided to take 17 hours, working was once again out of the question. After May (and two May classes), I will be a graduate of UGA and then....what? I have to find a job, an apartment, take over my car payment, pay taxes, pay all the dog stuff ($50 FOR DOG FOOD?!?!?), pay all the bills, and probably tons of other stuff. I have paid many of these things before, but never at the same time. I hate using my credit card (I know, I'm weird) and.....whew. It's just hard to digest.
I know it's time to become a full fledged adult. I know that I don't HAVE to find an apartment right away and that I can move home, but I feel bad taking my two dogs home because it isn't my parents responsibility to take care of them. I know that I will let them whenever I feel like going to see Rich and whatever else.
My mom and I made a deal that she wouldn't keep mentioning how excited she was that she wasn't going to have to pay stuff come August as long as I stopped freaking out about money. I agreed to this. Crap. Now what? I'm going to keep my frustrations inside, self-combust, and cry profusely. No...I won't. I'll be responsible, deal with it like an adult, and handle things as they come.
But for now.
I'm crawling into bed, with my two dogs, down comforter, flannel sheets....because it's the only place I feel secure in right now.
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