My friend Lauren has her own blog (here) and I took this from her's. I was surprised by some one my answers.

1. I’ve come to realize that my body... has begun to change as I've gotten older. I've never had a problem with what I eat, but all of a sudden, I'm more paranoid about it because I'm terrified of becoming overweight.

2. I’ve come to realize that my job... is currently nonexistent, but is coming in the next months. I am determined to find a full-time job when I graduate. I really don't want to go back to serving.

3. I’ve come to realize that when I’m driving... I believe I'm invincible. I think this is due to the fact that I now drive a pretty big SUV. I need to slow down and realize that I can get hurt just like anyone else.

4. I’ve come to realize that I need...to let what happens, happen. I hate waiting and I hate not having control over things. I need to learn that I can't control everything.

5. I’ve come to realize that I have lost...some really important friends. I had a friend that I had had since middle school, and she decided to drop me when her boyfriend became more important. I'm thankful that I've learned her true side, but it still hurts when we had been through so much together. She was literally my rock throughout high school.

6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when...I psyche myself out. I tend to make situations worse because I literally can not unhook my brain from a topic.

7. I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk...then it's really an odd night. I don't drink very much, but when I do, I make sure not to overdue it. I am a horrible drunk, becoming mean and upset, so it's better for all parties involved if I only have a drink or two (plus the whole control issue I have).

8. I’ve come to realize that money...drives me insane. Since I've stopped working for my last year of school, I hate spending any money because I worry about EVERY penny I spend. Ugh. I like shopping too much, so I'm learning to curb my wants.

9. I’ve come to realize that certain people...are totally worth it. I waited a long time to date a certain someone; time is well worth it.

10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll always...want everything. I want the best, but I'm willing to work for it. I've worked since I was 14, so that idea is nothing new to me.

11. I’ve come to realize that my sibling(s)...is more like me than I ever thought. We've never gotten along great, but over the last year, we've blossomed in our relationship and get along MUCH better.

12. I’ve come to realize that my mom...is my rock and savior. She is probably the most important person to me.

13. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone...never leaves my sight. Yes, I bring it into the bathroom with me and sleep with it. Something else I need to work on.

14. I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning...that I really did not want to walk the dogs.

15. I’ve come to realize that last night before I went to sleep...that I hate sleeping alone. The dogs were cuddling with each other at the end of the bed, and it was sad to say that I was jealous that neither was cuddling with me.

16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking...about my future, nonstop.

17. I’ve come to realize that my dad...is strange, but amazing. I've learned to love his quirks.

18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook...it doesn't change as much as I would like it to. I use it to delay doing schoolwork, so it needs to accommodate my needs.

19. I’ve come to realize that today...was yet another day of classes and another day closer to the real world.

20. I’ve come to realize that tonight...needs to begin; need to start doing schoolwork.

21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow...will be a long day, but will end up being wonderful (I'm determined to NOT have bad days).

22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to...decorate a new apartment. I love the way my apartment is, but I love decorating.

23. I’ve come to realize that the person mostly likely to re-post this is...probably no one.

24. I’ve come to realize that life... changes everyday and it is impossible to know what will happen. Live and let go.

25. I’ve come to realize that this weekend..will be interesting. My good friend is doing Miss UGA and I've never been to a pageant before, so I'm interested in this new experience.

26. I’ve come to realize the best music to listen to when I am upset...is usually the Rat Pack.

27. I’ve come to realize that my friends...are truly the ones who stick by your side through anything.

28. I’ve come to realize that this year...was a rough one, but I'm already moving on the new one.

29. I’ve come to realize that my husband...has a lot to put up with. I'm not usually the easiest person to tolerate, since I'm so severe and opinionated.

30. I’ve come to realize that maybe I should...curb my opinions.

31. I’ve come to realize that I love...what might come out of this year.

32. I’ve come to realize that I don’t understand...why I am the way I am, but I'm very proud of me.

33. I’ve come to realize my past...was rough, but it's the PAST. Not my future. Move on.

34. I’ve come to realize that parties...are blah. I'm not really a party person.

35. I’ve come to realize that I’m totally terrified...of failure.

36. I’ve come to realize that my life...hasn't even started yet.

Oh the future....

I haven't posted in a while, as my mom decided to point out this week (Hi Mom!). I guess I got sidetracked during final exams and projects. Plus I really couldn't think of anything to say. Graduation is nearing and I'm completely terrified.

I've always been responsible. I've always had a job since I was 14 until July 2009 when I finally decided to leave the job I had for three years. It was time to leave, mainly due to the stress that it caused me. I loved serving tables, learning about beer, and the way the restaurant worked. What I didn't enjoy was the high school drama and idiots who were around. Plus, since I was dating a coworker (still am, just neither of us work there anymore), it was really hard to have a relationship there. I was always mad at him, since I had trouble separating work and real life.

Now that I've quit, I feel less stressed, but also less useful. My mom and I made a deal that I would not work for the fall semester, in order to get myself back together. Then, when spring semester rolled around and I decided to take 17 hours, working was once again out of the question. After May (and two May classes), I will be a graduate of UGA and then....what? I have to find a job, an apartment, take over my car payment, pay taxes, pay all the dog stuff ($50 FOR DOG FOOD?!?!?), pay all the bills, and probably tons of other stuff. I have paid many of these things before, but never at the same time. I hate using my credit card (I know, I'm weird) and.....whew. It's just hard to digest.

I know it's time to become a full fledged adult. I know that I don't HAVE to find an apartment right away and that I can move home, but I feel bad taking my two dogs home because it isn't my parents responsibility to take care of them. I know that I will let them whenever I feel like going to see Rich and whatever else.

My mom and I made a deal that she wouldn't keep mentioning how excited she was that she wasn't going to have to pay stuff come August as long as I stopped freaking out about money. I agreed to this. Crap. Now what? I'm going to keep my frustrations inside, self-combust, and cry profusely. No...I won't. I'll be responsible, deal with it like an adult, and handle things as they come.

But for now.

I'm crawling into bed, with my two dogs, down comforter, flannel sheets....because it's the only place I feel secure in right now.